I swear I love michael but some days I have my doubt's about our relationship like how much I'm fucking it up and if he even cares anymore at this point .... I still want to be with him but at some point he just gonna leave I know he is. And its like I'm cutting the days off the less I trust him. I've noticed that I've been blaming him for the things my past have done then I keep listing to my mother she keeps saying that he doesn't really love me that he's most likely cheating that he.... Why the fuck do I believe her anyways she almost always wrong if michael is or has done anything to put our relationship in jepordy he would tell me like I tell him. And we would be able to work together and fix it or we would just let it go but I don't know it's not really him I don't trust its these hoe-ish girls I mean I don't blame them because Durr michael is not only sexy but he is smart and sweet and extra loveable >~< mech and then its also michael lies to me but then again I lie to him too...I lie to everyone even myself my trust issues are getting in the way of the things I want the most like to stay with him or to be a better girlfriend... I want to talk to him about it but I don't think he wants to have these talks.... IMA just going to change my behavior and let what ever happens happen there is no point in me trying to save what's already... Uuggg only if we were just as honest as the days we were that made us get back together and if these girls would just leave michael alone...
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