Storys of michael broken heart addition

This is heartbreak…

That tight pull tearing burning feeling in you chest
The explosive gas that makes you regeritate constantly in your tummy and sick taste in your through
That instant depression that doesn't even eez its way in it just pops up
That feeling of being so weak that you will be the luckiest person if you don't collapse the second you feel it
The burn in your eyes you get from trying with all your mite not to cry in public
The feeling that everything everyone gave up for you and u just can fix it
The feeling that life nor death even wants you
The feeling that all your happy memories were just building you up to drop you down a line that ends with a bed of the sharpest spikes and you know your going to feel each one with agonizing pains
This is what my heart break feels like but that said part is that its all real...

What happened to you?

Storys of michael 2

I swear I love michael but some days I have my doubt's about our relationship like how much I'm fucking it up and if he even cares anymore at this point .... I still want to be with him but at some point he just gonna leave I know he is. And its like I'm cutting the days off the less I trust him. I've noticed that I've been blaming him for the things my past have done then I keep listing to my mother she keeps saying that he doesn't really love me that he's most likely cheating that he.... Why the fuck do I believe her anyways she almost always wrong if michael is or has done anything to put our relationship in jepordy he would tell me like I tell him. And we would be able to work together and fix it or we would just let it go but I don't know it's not really him I don't trust its these hoe-ish  girls I mean I don't blame them because Durr michael is not only sexy but he is smart and sweet and extra loveable >~< mech and then its also michael lies to me but then again I lie to him too...I lie to everyone even myself my trust issues are getting in the way of the things I want the most like to stay with him or to be a better girlfriend... I want to talk to him about it but I don't think he wants to have these talks.... IMA just going to change my behavior and let what ever happens happen there is no point in me trying to save what's already... Uuggg only if we were just as honest as the days we were that made us get back together and if these girls would just leave michael alone...

Storys of michael

I know you probably are tired of me always bringing this stuff up but I have a lot to get off my chest

But you gotta understand that its really hard to hide emotions when you've been holding it in for so long
Its obvious that you may have somethings to say too but since you don't ever want to talk its kinda difficult to get along

I wasn't really mad at you when you were walking away I was upset because we aren't getting together and for some dumb reason I keep trying to change that so every time your with another girl or you leave me my heart breaks a little but the pain is massive

When your around jasmine and zanaya every time you hug a girl or leave with Louis or by yourself I get so fucking angry because I really feel like you are done with me and it seems like every time I attempt to fix it someone gets in the way and I feel like I'm in a compition  or your just not in the mood and I don't know what to do so I blame it on others and I secretly hate a lot of people because of it I only talk to other boys to get your attention your the only one that really matters to me

I don't know michael all I can say is I'm sorry.

How i made a monster

  Today is may-8-2015.

Around 4:30pm- 8:00pm I had my best friend/ ex boyfriend in my house and during that time i decided that if his girlfriend said I could "rape" him (sexualy tease him even when he doesn't want it) I chose to take as much advantage of that as Ipossibly could. Seeing as he had a girlfriend and we both disagree about cheating I figured hey why don't we tease but not let anything get out of hand. Well that obviously didn't go as planned for 2 and a half hours we were fine the teasing was on and off and he wouldn't even let me get all that close to him. I respected that so the teasing went from physical to verbal tho I was curled up in his arms like we ever movie fairy tale lovers. It was going perfectly fine. We were throwing sub's at each other (sub'sslang for planely hinting at ones past or currentactions talking about one or a group of people but oobvious enough not to make the wrong person think its about them.) We bugged at each other and we talked in our sexy voice whispered and even made funny faces. Cute right? But something he said made me climb on top of him thus making the teasing physical again and during the time of being on top of him in riding position he happened to thrust his boner on me causing me to bite my lip and my body to getwweak. I could barley hold myself up and my body was vibrating from fear and a sensible mix of hormones (Iam only 16 sadly) so iI leaned in closer Andi looked in his eyes and he made a face. I recognizedthe face bbecause we had been dating from June-2-2014 up until april-21-2015 we almost made a year on may second but I broke up with him because I thought he was cheating on me with girl girl he is currently dating and he was fine by it because he thought I was cheating on him with his 3rd best friend Louis which by the way Iwant bbecause I'mnot iinterested in him and if I wanted to be with Louis I would have left not cheated.